The other night we had release party for the new album with Claire Ross-Brown (“Complexity”). She is a danish/british singer whose album I produced together with Berry Sode. I have written about it before.
At the release we performed a few tracks live, and its always a great deal of work to prepare for that, so the day after the release I was a little bit tired.
However I had been confident enough to say yes to another one of my film gigs, where I improvise the score to a silent movie I have never seen before (or maybe seen once). This time I had never seen it before.
Its called “Safety Last” and its one of these old silent classic slapstics, where some of the action takes place in frightening heights on the outside of a skyscraper – I have NO idea where they got the guts from to do this – its really scaring to look at. And apparently its not just special tricks or similar – they really did this climbing around in 20 stories height.
Anyway, it proved to be a lot of hard work to get it together – or so it seemed in my head at least.
It wasn’t until the last half of the film I felt confident that I was making some kind of music that fitted the scenes. At some point I felt like “This is the last time I do this”. Not satisfying at all – I need to like what I am doing – especially when the pay is not fabulous.
My point is, that even though I had this feeling during the show, people approached me afterwards and asked where they could get this music and how. And expressed hat they loved the whole thing.
So a lot of time don’t trust only yourself – ask some outsider for advice – they can teach you something you didn’t know you could learn. Hmmm.. makes sense?
I think so – we need to look elsewhere sometimes.
Maybe the lesson is that even though your performance does not satisfy your own expectations, there may well be something in it that triggers an emotion or two in the audience.
chill out, downbeat artist Ganga
<a href=”http://www.ganga.dk”>Ganga – Downbeat / Chill Out Music</a>